怎么平衡？

曾经我总会拉着妈妈不放要求她别去做工
曾经我总会在傍晚期待着妈妈从某个路口回家来
曾经我还会倒杯茶给放工回来的爸爸慰劳他
曾经我总会跟着婆婆到处逛做个人人称赞的乖孙子
曾经我和弟弟很雀跃的因为妈妈致电给远在他方的外婆
曾经我还会吵着要哥哥带我到处玩去捉鱼
曾经我们住在大家庭堂兄弟姐妹都活得很开心

现在我变成功课为先的学院生
现在我几乎需要零用钱才致电回家给妈妈
现在我跟爸爸的谈话一年累计下来不到5句
现在我只有在回乡最后一天才探望我婆婆
现在我没有致电给我外婆只有一年一次的探望
现在我也没什么和我哥哥说话
现在我只知道弟弟想要画画但我不知道他真正喜欢什么？
现在我住在外面跟堂兄弟姐妹都很陌生

这是什么？
什么时候我的家庭我的生活可以演变成这样？
时间还是金钱？是人为是天意？

我承认我没有一个称得上融洽的家庭也不富有
每个人都带着面具虚假的和对方相处，这不因该有
如果因为这样而说这是一个借口导致家庭不融洽
那么，有没有错？？

我因为不想让爸爸妈妈辛苦赚来供我读书的钱浪费
也想努力而闯出一番作为成名赚大钱完成梦想
而日日夜夜很努力拼了命的在拼着学业
我几乎忘了我多久没有打电话回家
我根本忘了我有着父母兄弟
我想得最多的是我的功课到底该怎么做？

我的婆婆多就没念我了？我的外婆多久没见我了？
我的堂兄弟姐妹，我的叔叔婶婶知不知道我在做什么？
这么多年来，我们一家人聚餐过几次？
我们家，没有一张真正的全家福，对不对？


我说，我们很努力为了生活为了将来在打拼
其实，我们到头来为了自己还是家人？
拼到最后，我们是否还有多少时间陪在家人身边，
一起闲话家常，一起开心一起玩闹？

忙碌不是借口，而是抹杀亲情的杀手
工作与亲情之间，你怎么平衡？谁多谁少？


摸着心自问，到底你把什么放在你心中第一位？






今天，被训了一顿
这个人，我妈妈不太喜欢她，
但却是她，教了我这么多... ...



(this is a translated version of the previous article,
which I think is important to share with others who may concerned)


Last time,I did hold my mum's hand begging her don't go to work
Last time,I did waiting for my mum back from work at evening,everyday
Last time,I did give my dad a cup of tea for his whole day hard work
Last time,I did followed my granny to everywhere,people said I'm a filial grandson
Last time,me and younger brother will be very exciting
when mum's giving a phone call to granny at penang
Last time,I did keep asking my elder brother bring me to play around
Last time,I lived in a big family,siblings and cousins were living hormony and happy

Now,I'm become a working machine for my college assignments
Now,I only will call my mum when I ran out of pocket money
Now,I hardly talk to my dad in one year and won't be over than 5 sentences
Now,I only pay a visit to my granny when the last day for my holiday
Now,I didn't call my granny at penang,only pay her a visit once a year
Now,I didn' talk to my elder brother much,perhaps really rarely
Now,I know my younger brother wants to draw and design,
but I don't really know what he wants?
Now,I'm living at outside,I don't contact my cousins

What are these??
Why my family and my life will become like this
Is about money or time?Or this is just a destiny?

Be frank,I don't really have a lovely family,we ain't rich at all
Everybody lives with a mask,it shouldn't happen
If this is a factor to cause the family problem
Then it should make sense?shouldn't it?

I don't want to waste the money from my parents,they worked hard
That's why I worked really hard on my assignments,to achieve the summit and my dreams
All because I wanted to make them proud and satisfy myself
I almost forgot how long I didn't call back to my home
and I really forgot,I have my parents and siblings
What I've think all the time is,how I'm going to improve on my assignments?

How long does my granny didn't yelling on me?How long does my Granny didn't see me?
My cousins,my uncle aunties,do they know what am I doing now?
These years,do we have a family gathering?
We don't have a proper family portrait,do we?

I said,we are working hard for future
actually,we do all of these for family or ourselves?
At the end of the day,we still have how many times to with our family?
A warm talk,some concern or playing around.....do we still can?

Busy is not an excuse,but a murderer of the family relationship
Working and Family,how you going to balance?

Ask your heart,answer it honestly,Which you putted at the first place in your heart?



I've been given this lesson of life by a person
This person,my mum doesn't really like her
But,is she to taught me all of these...